I don’t write much any more. I’m not sure why, seeing as the unhealthy amount of thoughts running through my head at a time never seem to give me a break. I’m really happy for a minute then I start thinking about how much of a fuck I am then I’m not happy. Is this normal? Is it normal to think as much as I do? 

I also decided that I really like being alone. I have not decided if that’s necessarily a good thing, but I know it isn’t when I start not to text back and the boys who were interested start looking further and further past me. I don’t know how to keep a healthy relationship with a boy more than friends, because boys I like don’t do healthy relationships. Naturally I skip the sweethearts and spend most of my thinking on the ones who talk to me like meat. I’ll be okay though. I have a perfectly healthy relationship with myself. Healthy. Whatever that is.